'happiness for no reason' tactics kept appearing in my head
psychoing myself to believe, to practise
it's hard truthfully
tough to wanna achieve to achieve 'happiness for no reason'
internal struggle i mus say
used to wish tt times wun pass so fast n remain at the happier days/ moments
now, starting to fear the presence of those moments
dun wanna recall
dun wanna tink
dun wanna remember
trying hard to not let those surface
yah the key word ' is trying'
'take a weeks off to go bangkok n haf fun tgt;
join cf tgt;
if u were to go i wll go;
u r my only fran in kpmg'
haha..used to really believe these
now...yah still believe but not as much?
nice to hear this 'sugary' phrases
but protecting myself is a priority
aint sure how close u two were/ are the other time
mb a new target?
curious to wanna noe
no..i wun wanna noe cos the response will always be hurt
shuling n siewkoon ask me not to be a heartbreaker
'not to be a heartbreaker?'
then wad bt pple breaking a heartbreaker's heart?
haha..an irony..
no..all i wan is jus a fran..i mean frans to hang ard
'it's obvious tt he has other intentions' they say
i noe but wad can i do?
he's my fran n jus needa make it clear tt it can stay tt way for now
used to think it will be easy
used to think tt im strong
used to think tt i can survive all these..
used to think of a lot alot of things
since lost the power to defend myself
lost the energy to fight
cant be as happy as before, i noe
no matter how, applying the happiness techniques may help
i only wan to be happy