cant believe tt i can be so touched by the show tt tears just welled up n flowed
just so ridiculous
wad hj said is true...i may c wad i dun wanna c so no point gg
happy for u my fran! really happy for all my frans:) mb my sis soon?
living for the moments
last fri was fun..those lil talks...e game etc.. thanks ..thanks for speaking up n asked wad i prefer but really guilty for the rest had to go w my choice
'fated to love you' is nice..so close to heart..its bt this ger not being able to like whu she likes..shes just trying to enjoy wadever time she has with him as eventually they wun be tgt...is this the drama's ending? i doubt so as all drama serials will haf a fabulous ending..
oh well all these endings r fairy tales which will not occur in reality...
4:18 AM
Friday, August 1, 2008
'happiness for no reason' tactics kept appearing in my head psychoing myself to believe, to practise it's hard truthfully tough to wanna achieve to achieve 'happiness for no reason' internal struggle i mus say
used to wish tt times wun pass so fast n remain at the happier days/ moments now, starting to fear the presence of those moments dun wanna recall dun wanna tink dun wanna remember trying hard to not let those surface yah the key word ' is trying'
'take a weeks off to go bangkok n haf fun tgt; join cf tgt; if u were to go i wll go; u r my only fran in kpmg'
haha..used to really believe these now...yah still believe but not as much? nice to hear this 'sugary' phrases but protecting myself is a priority
aint sure how close u two were/ are the other time mb a new target? curious to wanna noe no..i wun wanna noe cos the response will always be hurt
shuling n siewkoon ask me not to be a heartbreaker 'not to be a heartbreaker?' then wad bt pple breaking a heartbreaker's heart? haha..an irony.. no..all i wan is jus a fran..i mean frans to hang ard 'it's obvious tt he has other intentions' they say i noe but wad can i do? he's my fran n jus needa make it clear tt it can stay tt way for now
used to think it will be easy used to think tt im strong used to think tt i can survive all these.. used to think of a lot alot of things
since lost the power to defend myself lost the energy to fight
cant be as happy as before, i noe no matter how, applying the happiness techniques may help
