i'm wrong. i'm wrong to have been persuaded to go..sorry shan, i shld haf met up with u ytd..
a night when i saw the true colours of pple, a night when embarrassment set in..sheesh, where can i hide my face?
frans?they wun face alcohol down u..not their fault...it's mine?whu ask me not to refuse..but how to when u haf 3 or four pple holding u down not letting u off unless u r drowned with the shots..so mani shots..was crazy..
lucky to haf jen..thanks jen for taking good care of me ytd, thanks for not leaving me alone and gt carried away by the bouncer..oh man, how embarrassing..gd thing din puke...he got drunk too..oh my..
i hate it when they forced me to, doesnt mean tt they gt drunk and fall flat last year we haf to be likewise..oh well this is wad 'seniors' always say..den when u get drunk dey jus leave u to hell..this is their true colour..i noe and im detesting n i despise them
i hate this job, i hate hafing to entertain..pple are so superficial..hate the working hours...but the company on my current n previous projs are good..hating the work nature..hating the feeling dat my life is under control by someone...hate to step into the office facing the managers..im hating it..
din wanna upset mum..i really din wan to..im sorry tt i din listen to u and went ahead ytd..yah i noe im wrg to haf even gone and worse persuaded to drink..mei's right in chiding me...thanks mei, im a bad sister, im not setting a good example, i stink i stink a whole damn lot..im not a good sister..sighh..
mind's set..gifing myself a month to go..hopefully a place where i can enjoy myself, end work earlier, no entertainment req, more time for family..
i noe im not a bad person..so i cant degrade myself like this..i mus change..im not an alcoholic..i'm not n i hate this feeling