4 more days to the end of the project..usually i wld haf yearn for it to end so i can move on n start afresh on another job...but this time round i dun..tink sthg will b lacking if this job were to end..mus admit dat its the company..the previous senior in charge of it left for good..less fun i guess
i will miss the relax atmosphere, the conversations etc etc..i will definitely miss my fran..the companion whom i do OT with even on suns..yah..sighh..i noe dat good things have to and will come to an end..i noe it will but im refusing to be convinced by it..yes im denying
mei noes me the best...shes the nicest sis on earth!though we always bicker, she makes a lot of sense and u will definitely be enlightened by her thots and ideas..much much mature than i..thanks mei for noeing wad im tinking without me hafing to articulate them..shes right, she noes y i cant bear to leave this project...
time seems to pass fast when u haf great company..cant stop the time so gtta enjoy these moments..nows 1215am so that makes it less than 4 days..
we are all aries, outgoing, crappy, hyper, emo, sentimental...same thoughts, frequency etc...haha..its just so miraculous...
they are jus so alike..tried pointing out the differences to him but cant really pinpoint what so managed a 'u r better' in wad sense? i dun noe cos its a feeling which i get..a reat fran a great pal..i dunno..
hating myself for allowing me to be back to then,,i cant stop but to move on and go fwd..cant believe tt those droplets emerged again..cant ctrl..simply hate myself for being like this..so embarrassing to be cleaning their trails while on the way to wrk..oh man..im doom..
this is karma?this is retribution..im jus afraid..but i noe im inching to doomsday again...jus managed a calm n peaceful life and im being made to go thru this emo stage of my life again
cant breathe properly..im suffocating and im really really lost...feel like keeping a dist. but i cant bear to..this mus be y my hurt is deepening and the glands are active yet again
i dun like whu i am n i noe i cant, i dun deserve, it's gonna be painful, gonna b like hell,,,gonna be so so depressing tt i cant function jus like then
i noe those mentioned will occur but i cant stop them ..my god..jus let it be and i shall just face the consequences alone..yes facing them all alone again