mb its stress, mb its lack of sleep mb its of other reasons which i cant pinpoint..
if ya were to ask me hw im feeling now...i can tell u straight tt i aint happy with the fact tt ive to wake up early and work till late...aint totally awake..im like a walking zombie,hate seeing my eyebags darkening, hate to listen to the gossips rel. to office..worst, thanking my seniors for being so kind to forewarn me bt the spinsters managers in office..thanks for telling me tt i will die under tt newly promoted director..it wun help by saeing tt she favours guys and will vent her anger on gers n not only gers but add the word pretty to it n u r cfm gg to suffer badly under her...sheesh..
hey!im being employed to learn n work not for pple to rant at! not here to tolerate the managers shit!yah being the lowest in the rank doesnt worth much but cant u jus think of urself in the past? dun u all haf some EQ? WTF!
gtting all emo bt it cos 10 days time i will b on a job with 3 guys and the darn director..dunno hw bad she is and i noe it aint fair to jus judge her jus by listening to my seniors comments etc..oh well, if shes not so evil, will pple detest her till like dat?i dunno..i jus wanna pray hard dat i wun die too terribly..will cfm die but hope wun die too badly..
it mus be lack of slp n the setting in of yet another rd of depression?the feeling seems to be appearing yet again..3 yrs ago now...oh pls! tmrs finally fri. again!good! but cant come bk to slack at home..for my future?will i haf one?sds bleak but whu noes..sians..yah gg dragonfly with the rest of the colleagues after work..nv been dere before so shall go chill..n yah think joyce does haf an agenda for asking me to go with them.,,n babe!it doesnt help by telling me dat piece of info and its scary to be in the office now..dun try too hard cos i aint trying and mb none will fit the bill..thanks for the thot though babe!
sleeping time..seems like im only enjoying myself during my slping hours and singing class...the rest of the time?im only hoping ill be aslp..seriously..if living is so hard..forget it..i dun mind not being a being..yah