always having premonition..sometimes its good sometimes its bad..today? sadly its the latter:(
aint feeling well in the first place. very lethargic the whole day even my tutee gtta correct me for my mistakes...so tired tt me even complained bt it n thot of skipping todays class:( knew todays class is gonna be a flop..sians..
next? haha..though we've registered for the milkrun, there's always a 30% thought in me tt we wun be able to make it eventually..
yah and both came true:(
current feeling? dejected depressed disappointed irritated super tired
its not due to the run though it wld be good for me to go relax and have fun to experience such events..haha...mb its cos its no luck bahs..there will be more runs ahead mb can sign up for those instead:)
today's class? wasnt myself wasnt paying close close attention..did a little warm up and off to the studio...gtta record verse by verse..all of them recorded successfully..cos mes the last one mine wasnt complete..reason: wrong falsetto usage..sighh..blame it on my past experiences in choir?or was it natural? it's a flaw confirm...we realised its no longer fun ktv-ing cos we r always so conscious of how we sing...not enjoying ourselves like last time..cos we ve grown used to the studio atmosphere..yah
laoshi asks jon laoshi to help me with my verse..think hes tired after gg thru 3 sgs..weihao took ard 45mins, miaoru bt 20 mei bt 20 mines bt 25-30min...yah n their verses were done..mine aint:( irritated tt me jus cant gt the normal and falsetto right...luckily jon laoshi taught me else if laoshi were to do it think i will gt whacked hard:9 alas...even im disappointment with myself...okie im tired must be...mei told me tt she overheard laoshi suggested to jon laoshi to lower the keys..and yah i agree den me will be using my normal tone to sing...
one comforting thing for the night? jon laoshi is so charismatic..he taughtt me the first 2 lines of the verse:) dun really dare to look straight into his eyes mans...i must have looked super dumb or blushing like crazy:( wah all the seh all gone..but at least hes more patient?a little weird to hear him speak in chinese cos hes so angmoish..n yah laoshi says tt he will let an angmohish teacher correct me cos im an angmohish student...haha...okie so i was lucky?:P..mei told me she gt 'dian' oso when he was teaching her how to use diaphgram jus now as well..haha..so both of us gt 'dian' by him..haha..was telling mei sthg ridiculous..told her tt me wun mind being his student and jus gt mesmerised by him weekly but of cos will learn nothing lahs!haha...alright shall cut my crap!
though today's recording for myself wasnt good, practices mus continue!i mus work harder and try with lower keys....yes!they can do it i can too!must show laoshis tt i can do it!and of cos prove to myself tt i can too!yah so dats it...ive gt only 1 week to improve to focus on improvements...yah next sat ive gtta prove to laoshi! quite obvious tt miaoru is his fav. n has the possibility tt she will gt to cut an album in the future, its okie..shall learn as much as possible..
give up? no way!cant jus give up lidat..jus the 5th session cant jus gif up lidat...dat wun be me!
suddenly realise tt mes only succeeding a little in studies...aint trained in other things...sighh...i wld love to play the piano, the organ, the violin etc..envious...i wld luf to excel in sports?
tmr will be a good day at least me gtta rest at home..sleep and practise practise practise! i can do it!i hafta do it and ive gtta show tt i can!
all the way JOLEEN!
(haha...new crush? oh mans...even i cant stand myself for crushing so easily esp. guys with such musical talent!:P haha..so shant paiseh myself in front of him nex week...IMPROVE will be the word!)