dunno y but suddenly dun feel like gg for meetups unless it's with some very very close frans..BOO?
y?im uncertain too..suppose to go to mandy's chalet with kj, hs, iriss, joey..yet cos hs cnt make it till late evening but me cant stay ltr cos of work the next day...so gtta gif it a miss:p hmm...hafing abit of headache as well..bleah:(
good tt me ys n charmx met up this afternoon..we slacked at new york new york till ard 2 plus den made our way to gloria jeans at raffles city and planted ourselves dere frm 330 to 5 plus before we started to make our way home...though we din do make jus sit dere...drink soup drink coffee talk, stone, crap, laugh at pple whu were queuing for doughnuts at doughnut factory, it was enjoyable esp. with my good khakis ard..at least i feel very comfortable, safe and good! hmm..mb cos mes tired or mb due to the setting in of another rd of depression me din really wanna acknowledge the presence of the few ntu tut. mates..they cfmed noticed my presence at gloria jeans but din say hi till we were on our way to guardian n had to pass by the peeps..they were friendly afterall
yah, deniece called to ask if me can make it for the bbq org by hillstreet guys...din wanna go esp when its bk in hall..so far so late..not worth it..den deniece msged to say tt the guys decided to change it to sat next week but cos of my classes me cant too! tt's one thing, on the pther hand, i dun really feel like gg...dun feel like mtg peeps frm hall, esp. them sians..y? im asking myself too..nopes, none of them offended me..no one to be exact but dun really wanna entertain them..or mb they r feeling likewise.so y am i complaining?dunno? i jus wanna complain:( thing theres really sthg wrong with me..sighh..mb its cos of avoidance? avoid? avoid for wad? so many mths alr...shld be hafing the 'used to it' ' none of my bix' feeling...mb i jus cant b bothered with stuff..mb ive gt nothing to contribute when i meet em...mb im hafing 2nd thought cos i noe i will be the target of entertainment..they mean no harm but im seriously sick and exhausted frm those alr...yr 1, yr 2, yr 3...and now?come yr 4?c'mon! wadever...pms-ing...
okie me shall be a good student and do my research on kogi tamaki n celion dion so tt me cant share my thoughts with laoshi n frans on sat..be engrossed in practising my songs, grab any remaining time which ive left to slack, spend time at home, lidat can save money too...yah..
tink me shld go haf a good bath and sleep, cool down etc..boo:(
falling into solitude isnt tt bad afterall